Beat Little Heart...
I've been really busy lately. Sorry for the missed blog entries, but I am having a hard time remembering where I put my day planner (a no-no when trying to stay on top of homework and business planning), let alone what to write in a blog. I am having to make myself stay on task, and remember to take time out to spend with others. The trade offs are always present in my mind.
I'm building a business right now. It's called Taste & See Salem! I am having a lot of fun putting the whole thing together, but it's the roller coaster ride fun. I find one minute that I am freaked out of my mind wondering if all the possibilities and places are going to come together in time for me to make this thing go, and the next I am so elated because I just landed another restaurant. I've done things I don't usually do, like buy expensive clothes, get my hair colored, introduced myself to business owners, and built a website. I'm taking a lot of risks, and I'm hoping that it pays off in the end.
Along the way, I've discovered a large circle of people willing to help me. Lots of people, from my banker to my hairdresser, have restaurants that they love and want to see on this tour. Others have amazing marketing ideas, or advise on the materials I am producing. I am learning to say no, to not let things get forced on me that I don't necessarily want, but also to say yes to help from those that I both need and desire. Even though I am a sole proprietor, I am excited because I feel like I have a team that believes in me and supports me even when I am experiencing self doubt. It's good.
My paradigm about money is also greatly being challenged. I've been camping out in Proverbs 11 these days. It talks about the generous soul being made rich and the righteous being recompensed on the earth. I want to be generous, to acknowledge that all my wealth comes from God. An old man I once knew told me always that my health was my wealth. I like that idea. So I've been trying to be a good steward of that too.
But I cannot control my health any more than I can control a restaurant owner saying yes to me or the people of Salem buying tickets from me. In short, God alone is the one who gives me what I need for this endeavor. So if I succeed it comes from Him, and if I fail, it just means that there is something else that He wanted me to have or experience that I could not have with this endeavor in the way. Yet still, I work at it with all my heart because I know it's not for me, it's for Him and to be a gift to my city.
So, I don't have all my ducks quite in a row yet, and I don't know who else will be coming on board for this project. But I am confident that God does, and that He's got a great idea for who, how, when, and what. And if the city of Salem isn't ready for it, that's ok. But I have a feeling that even though it feels like the bottom is going to fall out from under me, this is just an illusion of the roller coaster ride I am on. All will be well, and I will realize when I get to the end, that although I might have been scared for half of the ride, it's still was a lot of fun. I will understand that I was perfectly safe the entire time. But here in the middle of it, I'm having to remind my heart to beat. Oh, my little heart, beat!
I'm building a business right now. It's called Taste & See Salem! I am having a lot of fun putting the whole thing together, but it's the roller coaster ride fun. I find one minute that I am freaked out of my mind wondering if all the possibilities and places are going to come together in time for me to make this thing go, and the next I am so elated because I just landed another restaurant. I've done things I don't usually do, like buy expensive clothes, get my hair colored, introduced myself to business owners, and built a website. I'm taking a lot of risks, and I'm hoping that it pays off in the end.
Along the way, I've discovered a large circle of people willing to help me. Lots of people, from my banker to my hairdresser, have restaurants that they love and want to see on this tour. Others have amazing marketing ideas, or advise on the materials I am producing. I am learning to say no, to not let things get forced on me that I don't necessarily want, but also to say yes to help from those that I both need and desire. Even though I am a sole proprietor, I am excited because I feel like I have a team that believes in me and supports me even when I am experiencing self doubt. It's good.
My paradigm about money is also greatly being challenged. I've been camping out in Proverbs 11 these days. It talks about the generous soul being made rich and the righteous being recompensed on the earth. I want to be generous, to acknowledge that all my wealth comes from God. An old man I once knew told me always that my health was my wealth. I like that idea. So I've been trying to be a good steward of that too.
But I cannot control my health any more than I can control a restaurant owner saying yes to me or the people of Salem buying tickets from me. In short, God alone is the one who gives me what I need for this endeavor. So if I succeed it comes from Him, and if I fail, it just means that there is something else that He wanted me to have or experience that I could not have with this endeavor in the way. Yet still, I work at it with all my heart because I know it's not for me, it's for Him and to be a gift to my city.
So, I don't have all my ducks quite in a row yet, and I don't know who else will be coming on board for this project. But I am confident that God does, and that He's got a great idea for who, how, when, and what. And if the city of Salem isn't ready for it, that's ok. But I have a feeling that even though it feels like the bottom is going to fall out from under me, this is just an illusion of the roller coaster ride I am on. All will be well, and I will realize when I get to the end, that although I might have been scared for half of the ride, it's still was a lot of fun. I will understand that I was perfectly safe the entire time. But here in the middle of it, I'm having to remind my heart to beat. Oh, my little heart, beat!
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