To Jane- with Love
Dear Jane, I guess this is as good a place as any to write to you. You're dead, and besides, we never knew each other. I think that most of the people who have significantly shaped my life have this is common with you. You were so bold. You put your name on your writing when it wasn't even acceptable to do so for women. I admire that about you. You didn't marry, instead choosing to make your own money on your own terms and support yourself. Yet often I feel like my life is just like one of your stories, just never that break through moment when it all makes sense. I feel like I am constantly having to learn and relearn this lesson about the character of men. I don't seem to get it right ever. But I want to. Maybe learning about my own character is helpful too. I am tired of trying and failing. I want to succeed. I am tired of being lonely, of holding my breath and distracting myself just long enough to go to sleep and try to make it through another day. I am tired o...