Reasons to stay alive

I am having a bad night.
I have got to write these down or I may not see daylight.
1. Thor needs me to keep him company, and he doesn't really like anyone else.
2. I have three kindergarten kids I promised to read to. I can't disappoint them.
3. I want to finish school and be the first of my sisters to earn a post graduate degree.
4. I hope to find someone special to spend my life with. I have to stay alive for that to happen.
5. I have a lot of paying forward to do. There's the scholarship fund I want to start, and teaching a child to love with their whole heart.
6. I want to cook Thanksgiving dinner for my family.
7. I don't want my nephews to be scarred by my absence the way I am scarred by Chris.
8. I haven't painted my masterpiece yet or written my book.
9. It would be a shame to waste my tattoo on the grave.
10. I want to be at Natalie's graduation from university.